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last night was so funny. tito ambrose brought a johnnie walker double black. drank with my papsie then my godfather arrived late so we bonded over a case of pale pilsen (i remember my lolo who used to drink a bottle or two every night at my godmother’s store.)he suddenly wants me to be his only son’s gf. even told me about a good future with his son. hahaha then i guess even if i don’t find mr.right there would still be guys i can have arrange marriage with LOL XP

happened on 04-03-12

ok to set the records… i had this affair with a drummer of a shock pop band who’s now in the province. it started december 25 2011, and i ended it on monday, the week before my birthday. tuesday that same week, another friend band of mine who won in a yearly battle of the bands had a gig in 70s bistro which is just across the corner of our street. the frontman of the band is such a good friend when suddenly when we were off to a tapsihan, while inside the car, we had this petty kiss (smack) that i just smiled about. he along with his brother and friends, drove me home. he ended the night by texting, “di pa tayo tapos” hahaha crazy but i only find him as a good friend. after which,i was shocked when the bassist of the band texted me the next day and the day after and til i had the time and agreed to drink with him. i never thought he was into me and flirted the night out. good thing the frontman texted and i asked him to help me out, he called and said that he’ll handle it. it was a very shameful moment and i never contacted with them anymore.

so the deal is.

Damn my dreams! had been dreaming of the front man last week after the incident. but i’m not minding my dreams til this very day.

every time i continue sleeping, i always end up dreamin of the people i’m avoiding to think about and ends up that in my dreams, we’re having a moment that’s different from reality—way too positive.

MY DREAM

as far as i could remember i was then drinking in the wee hours of the morning with my friends martin, dms, and other teatro people when dms shared to us that his bar will open that same night. afterwhich i had a retouch of my hair at my friend, freda’s salon, then an acquaintance who was the brother of my friend jaycee got separated from his wife, i was then asking him what happened and was discussing the incident to him. needed to go home so we continued the discussion through skype. this guy is not a close friend of mine and it didn’t end up having a resolution so i won’t discuss further ( i can’t even recall LOL). After which is the highlight of my dream!

the drummer came back and we had lunch wd few acquaintances and the crazy bipolar and a half girl who spilled things about our affair. so he was wearing this polo that looked good on him, together with his backpack and i was kind of aloft talking with him. but after some time we already conversed. the usual “how are you”. then i went somewhere and the scenario was like, a common friend of i and the drummer (i guess a member of his band) was going to where we were so i texted the member right away and stopped him. when i went back i asked him if he got caught, he was just standing and said no. then i think he has no place to stay or no one will accompany him so i told him that he could come with me to my friend’s bar who’ll be reopening that same night. he smiled and kinda agreed.
then the setting suddenly changed into a barrio-type of house i was sitting in a small bench out of wood when suddenly drummer boy came near me and sat facing me. -H- <—- how we look (the horizontal line is the thin bench and the 2 vertical lines are us sitting face to face). there was a couple who was sleeping in a higher bed inside (like a double deck) under a “kulambo” and was having their sweet moments. suddenly dummer boi kissed me so passionately and was even out of rhythm. i laughed and was kinda shocked and told him “we’re in a public place, stop that!” then i went inside and just lied down to avoid him but he still followed, placed himself above me and talked to me. he again kissed me and all and i told him “hala! what are you doing aren’t we supposed to not talk with each other and just be civil because of what happened? you said you’ve lost ur life when your fiancee left you and you said that i lied to you. do you have a new gf in the province that’s why you can smile again now and fool around?” (thought that he’s now a playboy because of what happened to him and his ex) he then said that he doesn’t have any gf and wants me to be his girlfriend since he is now free and has recovered. but i didn’t agree because it was too quick and it seems like he changed.

hahaha funny :P 03-16-12

Late post :P

Super fun after all the recent unproductive days na super absent nanaman ako (I promise this week is the start of something new!) Well di naman pala unproductive cause i was with this Australian guy who was endorsed to me para itour dito sa metro. So yun after class nagugulat nalang ako biglang sumusulpot sa house or tatawag para samahan ko sya. 2 weeks na sigurong ganun buhay ko or 3weeks pero enjoy naman. I actually met him once over dinner before. 5years ago siguro pero didn’t had the chance to talk with him or bond with him. High school palang kasi ko nun and graduate na ata sya ng college.
I call him “kuya aussie” kasi i really don’t understand his name even how many times na nya inulit hahaha. The accent kasi and also feeling ko kakaiba rin ang names sa australia and i don’t wanna seem to be such a deaf girl and to piss him off if i ask him to spell his name hahaha.

So this week, and last week and last month and last last month… uhm…  hahaha joke basta RECENTLY haha. all about reconnecting with old friends and meeting new frends pala :P (title palang diba? :P)

Feb 22(night) My old friend migs of jtc was in 70’s bistro, their band played kasi so we talked and joked around. Grabe bida-bida ko sa set nila hahaha it was way back in “club dredd”(now gwelio’s in ewood) pa kasi when it was the second nd last time i watched their gig. 2009 pa ata :P i shouted for dekada for them to play which biboy sang without hesitation. Natatawa ko kasi after the song biboy said “ikaw ate heart broken ka noh” hahaha, porket gusto ng dekada, heartbroken agad? di ba pwedeng un lang kasi pinakagusto kong kanta nyo? hahaha :P then they sang bagong panimula i saw migs na parang he was looking at me and eye signaled na parang “hi” pero deadma ko kc bka feelingera ko LOL. Suprisingly migs said before their next song “kilala kita ha!” hahaha. then i chanted for nobela and they sang it again. Then last song na as i was chanting for “baliktanaw”(nankita ko lang sa EP nila na binalik ko that day kay angelo, which they didn’t sang but instead, rakista) kala ko ok na yung exposure ko, as biboy was saying thanks and pointing out the people, migs suddenly said “khaye(pointing at me as i looked around and asked him back, “me?”) o diba khaye” sakto biboy said “yan thank you kay ate(pointing at me)” migs said again, “si khaye, si khaye yan (reminding biboy)” biboy on the other hand just randomly said “kay khaye.. si kay (jokingly)” and stil migs insisted “si khaye yan eh, you’ve grown ha (with a laugh)” then parang nagulat na si biboy kasi nagspeeh sa mic si migs so he looked at me talaga and told migs na “si khaye nba yan?” GRABE NAKAKAHIYA!!! sabi pa nya “you’ve grown ha! dati nung pumupunta ka sa gigs tumutulo pa sipong mo pero ngaun look at you, dalaga ka na. you’ve grown!”—-which aren’t true! LOL =))
once lang kaya ko intentionally pumunta sa gig nila hahaha pero that was a joke lang nmn and quite memorable and fun encounter tlg hahaha. i even said this comment din to him and he said na he can joke anyone like that daw pero nagulat lang daw tlg sya and unexpected and i changed daw tlg. Super nakakatuwa kasi i feel like dami ko palang friends na di ko na nacocontact. saka masaya pla pag matagal mo na di nakikita kasi sabi nya “pumayat ka” LOL WAHAHAHAHA =)) ROFLSH hahaha SUPER KABALIKTARAN! hehehe gained 30pounds pero si CJ din na i didn’t see for a few months sabi rn na pumayat ako based sa super max weight ko when they knew me. kaya super FUN NIGHT TLG :D

End of january up to early feb i was bonding with the other psych barkada of my friends dn frm psych. Shot sa tides, PS(eh un trip nila eh hahaha nakikisama lang nmn :D and kahit san nmn aq :P) got to know vianca, jade and surprisingly CJ na i met ndn before sa PACE seminar sa trinity(for new students).

Last week of january din, i was in figaro and i saw my marikina friends, jordan(sopiz band) and jeric, nagulat ako they shouted my name. hahaha, how could they forget me eh sure ako kilalang kilala ko ng buong barkada nila hahaha because of a certain reason na super funny lang. 

Then early january din i was with my friend alyssa, when a funny jeep incident happened. may naong na sigaw ng sigaw ng “para” eh nabadtrip na ko sa kabingihan ng driver at hinaharurot pa yung jeep so i said, “MANONG PARA DAW!” and whispered, “binge lang?” and laughed a bit, suddenly Abigail(my 4th yr barkada and UST schoolmate) was just beside alyssa, she said loudly “karen?! ikaw ba yan?!” natawa ko at nagulat so i shouted, “OH MY GOSH! ABIBOY! :D”, natawa ung mga pasahero kasi yung mga pananalita ko hahaha =)) natawa rin ako kasi sure ako kaya ako narecognize ni aby dahil sa banat ko hahaha.

Then last week kuya aussie’s friends na mga may “lahi” din just got back in manila so kasama ko sila minsan sa the fort or katips or makati. si Carl, Geej, Paulo(pronounced as polo), Jack and another guy i also understand the name hahaha.

Then thursday afternoon i was with kuya again with his friends sa timog for late lunch cause his friends are about to go to bora that same day i think, eh i don’t wanna go far anymore so i just stayed in morato and met with alyssa for a tea and cinnamon swirl(her favorite). Tita gave GC kasi sa SB eh he has a lot pa so he gave me P200 worth na gc (kasi nakakakhiya good for me lang hiningi ko:P i said i’ll have tea lang and cookie lang :P) pero kuya called after alyssa left kasi she had to fix her thing pa for their caliraya trip for the next day. His friend jack left his car pala to kuya so he picked me up and went to a laundry shop near picasso residences in makati. He was given a GC daw for picasso and he was endorsed daw to the manager so he has discount if he stays there for few more days. lagi rin kasi wala and magulo ung room nila and he hates it when he hears his father’s snore. He’s also used to sleeping alone in the hotel cause his parents are always with their friends or out of town or he’d just have friends or me over lang if he feels bored. So there, sinamahan ko sya magtransfer ng gamit nya sa from heritage, magpalaundry and all. We had dinner nalang sa ayala nd slept over picasso since i dnt have class nmn d next day. Nagpasama dn that friday morning si Kuya sa mall where we had breakfast and lunch, he bought clothes and had his hair cut. nakakatuwa sya kasi sya kasi nagpasama sya magpahaircut and ayaw nya na di ako magpaservice din sa salon. I don’t want tlg kasi i hate it when other people see my hair wet, the process of blow drying it and all that. Pero he insisted, kesa umalis kami sa salon i had my hair colored na. We went home kasi i took a bath and changed clothes and after having dinner with him around 11pm, I drank again with pachie and his friends sa kanila which last happened months ago pa(i mean sa house nila and overnight). Went home saturday 3pm had a yummy halo2 sa palosapis street na super sulit for P20 :D Felt very gloomy and melancholic at home so just gave my attention and support sa MIND party for mass comm’s officers. Then i was surprised na di pa ko nakakabath sumulpot nnmn sa bahay si kuya aussie, medjo dyahe pero still a savior. Wanna unwind he said roadtrip kami so we went to antipolo/marikina and we even got lost hahaha and super funny which i’ll do another blog about the details =)) and then went home and bonded with my “bestest” paola in coffeebean, had tea lattes and a spanish sardines which kinda blue cheese pandesal. Then cainta kasi bday ng friend nya, after 40minutes went to pachie’s place again for few beers then home again.

Late post :P

Past 12 midnight (Manila Time)
03-10-12

Funny!!!! and sakit sa ulo!!! and sweet as well :”)
This was a part and the highlight of my conversation over skype with AB.

Awesome said: 2 more days and it’s ur bday

Me:yeah 19 long years of existence! 

A:imagine how many months that is 

Me:19x12=228

A: and hw many days?

Me:considering 36days a year? or 365? wait… uhm i was born 1993 since then 5 leap years… 7 months of 31 days a year…

A:wait stappi!(stop it lol) are you serious with all those numbers?! 

Me:Wait! stappi too! (laughs) my brain cells are currently active i wanna know the answer too :P let me do this… (continues) so 7X31x19.. plus 4 30s month per year so 4x19x30 then total of 19 febs which has 28 days… no less 5 leap years so 14x28 plus the sum of 5x29! :D
*writing down the sums….(4123+2280+392+145)

A:(looking at me really weird and laughing hard…)

Me:=6940!!! oh my gosh!!! i can’t believe it! where the hell did those almost 7k days go?!  like how many hours of my life!

A:oh please don’t compute for it anymore!!! (looking really frustrated)

Me:LOL sorry! no i won’t i’m not that desperate but admit it, it’s a nice ice breaker for this crazy busy days… but seriously i lived like 6938 days now? and you around 10k?! and i’m just like this?! this is crazy!!!! what’s up with my life? i don’t even feel any contentment or fulfillment. full of problems, pessimism, negatives… oh life :(

A:(laughed then suddenly became serious) yes… Imagine we weren’t like this before i reached the 10 thousandth day of my life. And not until you’ve lived 6900 days did fate gave me the short while to know you. Life is crazy, I was given 10k days to live my life alone. Hopefully in the coming 20K days or even til infinity, the girl i met after those 10k days would share with me those coming thousand days of my life, before she even reaches her 8 thousandth day of existence.

Me:(Very shocked! speechless!)
(said this to my self out loud don’t know if he understood): so 1 thousand days lang sya mag hihintay ganun? sabagay hopefully graduate na ko nun! LOL

A: what was that?

Me: oh! no! haha… (to break the ice and change the topic) so your the living proof that 69 is such a wholesome number? since u came in my life during the 6900th day of my existence :D

(laughs and changed the topic)

NAKAKALOKA LANG TALAGA! :P

Late post :P

So there’s this “kuya aussie” who was from (obviously) australia who suddenly made me become his tour guide. since i have classes i can only accompany him on weekends, after class or before class. i just call him kuya aussie coz i feel so stupid to ask him to spell his name (due to his accent i don’t knw how to pronounce his name). Yes, honestly we’ve been hanging out for a little less than 3 weeks now yet i still dnt knw his name (michael, kiel, karl, mark oh god idk! something like that)

been touring him in the city after they came from bora, cebu, north, etc. I brought him to makati (jupiter, salcedo, bel-air, etc.), Eastwood, Timog, The Fort, Even in Marikina and Antipolo where we got lost (coz im not very much familiar with the place.) 

MY TAGAYTAY ESCAPADE(02-26-2012)

Around 10am (very quick drive indeed!) kuya, his parents and me stopped over a stall along the road to buy fresh buko :D Then we headed immediately to the cliff house to meet with kuya’s parents’ friends for breakfast at buon giorno!
There’s this opium bed which made me love the place more. We also thad a taste of some food in fire lake grill where some of the elders had their breakfast. A few talk at cafe breton, where i had my mug of vanilla liegeois “leejwah” and my favorite butter and sugar for dessert. Also had a quick view of domicillo art gallery and a drink with kuya while waiting for his parents.
Around 12noon We dropped by the market to buy fresh ingredients to cook before going to taal lake yacht club which was mainly the reason why we went to tagaytay (to drive kuya’s parents’ to TLYC to bond with their amigos and amigas :p), kuya hates such gatherings so he talked to me beforehand to just tour around tagaytay. Good thing the elders planned to go on a yacht trip and go to the casino when they get back.

Having the whole afternoon and night time, we headed straight to gourmet cafe to avoid the hot sun and to have fresh fruit juice and greens to avoid illness. also dropped by the drugstore cause i had too much chocolate or i’ve eaten something that triggered my allergy.
Around 3pm we decided to go to picnic groove for an hour of horse back-riding but before consuming the whole hour we felt tired and bored so we decided to grab some food from mushroom burger, aside from the drinks we took from the yacht, and had a quick trip to people’s park in the sky where we spent few hours of chatting, drinking and jamming at the back of the pick-up and the view of taal lake. We waited for the sunset then by 6pm we headed back to aguinaldo road to buy medicine again cause i’ve been sneezing because of the pollen then looked for antonio’s restaurant. The ambiance was fantastic! A very romantic place, i shall say, and very expensive! But is very worth the price if you’re with your special someone. I think reservation is needed(only after did i knew that the dinner was planned!) so that you’ll have your table all set and your food served a bit quicker than the usual. The food was perfect since they serve in small portions(5-star resto type) so i can still manage eating the food but maybe because i only steal naps as we go one place to another, i can’t help but feel sleepy. so before 9pm we had coffee alamid(a cup is super cheap in this place! less than P200!!!) in bag of beans with my sinful cheesecake(blueberry and strawberry :p). Alamid is a savior! I really felt alive and energize. I even had time to make a suggestion for the MCO candidates i support. Kuya and me had more bonding time and star gazing while waiting for the text of tita if we’ll still pick them up or not. 

*leslie’s bulalo

*mushroom burger

*people’s park in the sky

*mano’s greek taverna

It’s hard to miss Leslie’s when you go up to Tagaytay. It comes before Bag of Beans and Sonya’s Garden if you’re coming from the Sta. Rosa, Laguna or the South Luzon Expressway. You’ll find 

Perfect post for me!

As a Mass Communication student and as the English language being unstoppable as it rampantly spreads as the 2nd language of numerous countries, I must as well enhance and further develop my grammar, spelling, writing, accent, vocabulary and all other elements related to communication. In line with this, I would try my best to write as often as i could. I would try my best to post blogs which are as interesting as possible or blogs which are relative to human catastrophes and situations. 

Please bear with me. I’m exercising and trying to type and put into words as correct and proper as i could, my thoughts and my knowledge.

THANK YOU FOLLOWERS :D

P.S. This is my Personal blog. The reality beneath khaye. Everything about KHAYE.

I’m a Mass Communication Student Major in Broadcasting. Years before the “Ondoy” incident happened, i remember that i was able to browse my pre-school yearbook. Below the picture are the ff:
Name: Karen Joy Diaz
Ambiton: To be a nurse

Funny it is that i said i want to be a nurse. As i was browsing the year book I thought I’d see mine as “To be a teacher” because that’s what i thought i would say. Then i remember not so vividly that moment when my teacher asked me to finally tell them what i want my job to be when i grow up. I actually delayed my answer during the first time they asked me what my ambition was. I can remember that i told them i haven’t thought of it yet and even told them that i heard that they won’t print the book yet. They may opt to ask me again whenever the book has to be published. During the time i was asked FINALLY, i was seating on the wall before the principal’s office’s door. I asked my lola if what’s a job for a girl that would make me earn a lot. She answered, “a doctor.” But i thought of surgery. I don’t like the thought of it. So they that I’d rather be a teacher. But i said, “I don’t want to teach my fellow students because they are very stubborn. I also know teachers don’t earn that big.” Then i remember, YES indeed i did answer that I’d rather be a NURSE. Why? Because i want to help people. Honestly! I really want to.  During that time nurses aren’t as plenty as they are right now, well the nursing graduates, that’s what i meant. And at the same time, the doctors are the ones who do the surgery. I want to be a professional in the field of science but maybe not as a doctor.  I believe that time was the start of the Nurse Phenomenon. That time was the start of the widespread of the news that nurses earn a lot abroad. And as that phenomenon was happening that ambition started to diminish as well.

When I entered elementary I thought of becoming like my tita. A well-respected person in her field. She graduated BS HRA in U.P. Diliman but ended up as a senior sales manager in a pharmaceutical company. The company was an international company and she had all the benefits. I believe I can do better than her. And because I believe I can do better than her I thought twice when I was in 2nd year high school. I thought I wanted to be a doctor but when I encountered biology, I started to hate science. Thanks to chemistry and physics, they were the best subjects ever! Going back, taking up medicine will take me around 10 years to finish. It’s very costly! I hate injections and surgeries too! So even though i want to be a professional doctor, I thought I’d rather not pursue it. I was invited by the moderator of the Drama Club to audition when he saw me practicing and performing on stage when i was in 2nd year. I tried the next school year and passed the audition. I thought of Mass Communication as a course but i my mom told me that BS is a better option unless i want my masters degree to be of a lawyer. I’d rather be a doctor than a lawyer so i deleted it from my options.
When i reached 4th year high school, i was very interested in Economics so i thought i shall try it. I can also be in the corporate world if i graduate with a Econ degree. I took the entrance exam in UP but only wrote Economics and Business Administration as my 2 choices and only Diliman as my preferred branch. I lack a few points but may pursue in the other branches if i may. But no thanks. I tried in DLSU but i was wait-listed. In UST they had this IQ test before the entrance exam itself. That was something different compared to UP and DLSU, i thought. Luckily i passed both of my chosen courses. I even knew that i can enroll on other courses because Pharmacy and Actuarial Science suddenly crossed my mind. Not t mention i was put in the star section of the whole batch! It was based on the IQ level :D I pursued Business Administration because it has nicer uniform compared to the College of Arts and Science, very shallow huh? But i was right, as i was studying, AS has a lot of noisy “gays and gayrls” no discrimination intended but most of the students are really noisy though it suits them. That’s a plus factor for their job description.

Then this terrible incident happened to my life when i was hypnotically being absent and tardy in my classes. A person who hypnotized my and brought bad luck, misfortune and tragedy in my life. Someone who pulled me down together with him. I was in a state of double depression. Severe depression that i chose to stop and go somewhere far. Somewhere i could start anew. But still that person did not stop. Still pulled me down and almost pushed me into my grave. I went back to Manila and enrolled in a theater workshop which i last did during high school. Because of my love for such Arts and the acquaintances and friends i knew, I think I may go far and establish myself in that industry, the media.

I will not deny that when i was a kid i want to be a singer, an actress— a showbiz personality. I was a good singer and even became a talent of a well known workshop. When i was in grade 4 a radio show had an audition in school and only 4 or 5 of us was able to pass the audition for a young singer talent for the radio show. My mom just didn’t want my studies to be affected and be disturbed. So there without any second thought i shifted to AB Mass Communication. I became interested in politics too especially when i knew that my cousin is currently the vice-mayor of Makati.

My cousin is currently working for Raffy Tulfo in a radio show which is simultaneously showed on TV and another one who is Inquirer’s correspondent for foreign concerts happening in Manila. And a lot more people. Because of these I’m somehow at ease now.

Currently, I find myself to be behind the lights and the camera. A column writer or a production staff. I even want to be a dubber, a dj, or we never know, a broadcaster. As I’m bringing back my proficiency in English and as I’m enhancing my spelling and grammar, I may say that I’m in the process of becoming a journalist.

=D

You’ve hated me, you let me be in this situation. Let me hate you back for making me look like an antagonist, villain, wrecker, the suspect, the accused, the criminal and all others that YOU MADE ME LOOK LIKE. I can ruin you but rather than doing that i’ll slap all these in your face. all these mistakes you did, and all these trouble you did, and even all these sweet and heavenly sins you did.

i know i’ve already closed this case and issue in my life. i don’t even know why i can’t help but blog about this. maybe… well, maybe…. uhm…. i guess it’s because i ended up looking like a villain and not just a villain but someone who was blamed for everything where in fact, i’m the fucking victim!

so here’s the story and the current situation why i’m writing this… let’s just go through it…

so i’m finally home. goodness gracious! narestore ni big man ang iba kong messages dito sa phone although yung mga gusto kong marestore ay di na back-up :( but GOLLY WOW! first thread that appeared with a picture was this person who i intentionally erased his 2 threads in my phone. apparently 300 messages of this person were backed up just before my phone sucked. as i was scrolling through this thread sweet memories came back in my mind and made me smile but after reading 3-5 messages i just felt like turning off my phone coz i know for a fact that it was over, that those were now lies and that those were traps! when i scrolled it for the last time just so i cud go back to the very end of the thread and lock my phone, it suddenly stopped to this message of that person to me. exact words end texts are as follow:

“dnt wury tooo much evryrhing in ths world happens for a reason, our choices and things we wantd to have and make. sad and happy things and the best thing about it is having the slightst chance to make it possible somehow. hihi”

there was even this…

“alam mu khaye i know how u feel… kse i feel bad na on what you posted and i am not an ass to pretend na m all selfish and all.. peru i know na i really like u and i feel bad honestly and i just wnted to see u and oki if u want to just tell me directly and im not mad or anything„ i just hapen to like ur presence and it comforts me”
followed by a separate “mwuah”

i don’t even know why you suddenly said that, maybe i posted a random or a current feeling or thought na natamaan ka, but i even asked you “what’s that for? what’s wrong? i don’t get it.”

and you said, “i just feel so good and happy when m wd u and it feels great honestly khaye and i never felt happier.. uki :-)”

there were a lot more that was just so true when we were together. i even asked for a detachment but u insisted not too and even when things are already very fatal, i asked you what’s next about us and you told me nothing will change.

Lessons & FACTS you should decipher:
1.i did ask you regarding your situation back then, i did my part on knowing what’s really going on and where it may have led to… i asked you straight to your face, you answered me back openly that, “baka nga hindi na matuloy, hindi ko alam”—-SEE THIS SHIT?! i just believed you! i did ask you because if you have answered me…”yes on this certain date or this certain month,” then i would have limited myself! YOU ASSHOLE!
and now you’ll slap on my face. “i’ve already RESERVED A PLACE, on THIS DATE! followed by a RESERVATION I MADE after that… and all this and that!!!! ALL ARE GONE!!!”—— FUCK YOU ASSHOLE! you never told me that!!! DID YOU? when we were together it seemed like you knew there was only 5% chance and now EVERYTHING WAS the OTHER WAY AROUND!!!!!

AND LET ME SLAP THIS TO YOU FACE, didn’t you describe that person as “MALDITA” and even named that person “YUNG NASA LABAS.”
you know what’s funnier? i thought there was nothing going on between us but look at your words, you’re the one who’s implying the message without me asking you about it. i was even the one who told you you were very bad and you should show respect. you kept on using the word “maldita” as an excuse. But like what i’ve said, respect is the key to any relationship.

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE?

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A HYPOCRITE!!!!

I’m very thankful it ended. i do sound “bitter” i know but i’m really thankful that things ended that soon because probably if time flew farther and longer, i may be the one experiencing the disrespect you’ve done.

2.You know for a fact my previous relationship story and that my heart genuine, vulnerable… i never intended to ruin anything, i never even asked for anything, it was you who wished for those and made a move for those to happen. i never asked you to be mine. Therefore there’s nothing to lie about, you’ve already opened up your situation on me and i even gave you advice which are definitely against my side if i was into this rivalry but you know i ain’t. i even asked you to stop everything and forget what happen since my conscience is bugging me. whenever i help people it always end up that i’m already included in the problem and as a result i become responsible for everything that has happened, even the time i wasn’t in the situation yet, everything that is happening and everything that will happen. and so is true i was still there when the fatal scenario happened and was obliged to fix the flaws.
and if it was really true, if your words are really serious and if you are real that time, then you should know that you started it all, you made me believe and you should not be stupid that i would just go on with the flow. you gradually made me feel so special and important, you answered my questions and you seriously conversed with me as if after sometime, a few months or so, it would be me. and to be honest, even before that disastrous incident happened i was already thinking that i need to step out of that shit but i dnt knw how, and as i was starting to detach since i know after few weeks we will then be busy and may communicate poorly after a certain period of time, i can bring back my old self and treat everything as what the other girls do and are used to—-playtime.
UNFORTUNATELY I’m not like that! and unfortunately, just as you were leaving you told me YOU LOVE ME. 

3. Your words are the reason why things happened. words which i pondered upon for so many times. actually when you said you love me, i replied but i didn’t feel any “kilig” or spark. i didn’t feel that 30-seconds of hot seat-slash-life revival moment. because i know that is something which is so good to be true. see i’m not stupid at all. i remember when we were in that disgusting place i’ve been in the first time, i felt degraded to be honest, i even asked you “what’s this? what are all these? what’s happening? i need to know since i’m not into fooling around anymore”    
and you said, “khaye, tignan mo ko, di ako masamang tao, di kita niloloko, masaya ako pag kasama ka…” and before you told that i was even openly asking questions to know whether all were true or you just loved it and you continued or if everything was planned and those were just baits and traps to benefit you. apparently you passed my test, you weren’t irritated opening up with me you even told me, “sana nakilala kita 10 years ago” and even said that, “siguro kung nakilala kita dati pa, tayo forever”——CRAP!? see that?! then before we parted ways you said those words above that you’re real, true, serious and not a bad person.

Oh may i ask, can you remember those? or do i have to name that one jolly song which was one of my current fave that time and happened to play on myx in the middle of ur serious business?

4. i was reckless, yeah i’ve been, but weren’t you? Who was so reckless and tactless that very week before he left that the public has already seen us together EVERYDAY!? Who has let those who are also connected with that person you’re yearning for, see us together and all other actions more than that? Who wished me to stay longer, sleep with him every night, and to accompany him with his errands? i did those genuinely but you’d blame me after wards? C-O-W-A-R-D.
sisiraan mo sakin pero di mo masabi sa harap nya, eh magplastikan kayong dalawa!

5. I don’t fuckin care whatever that was forwarded to you by that insecure insect. napakadaling magimbento at sa panahon ngaun napakadaling magmanipulate lalo na ikaw dahil isa kan ubod ng daling mamanipula. i don’t need to explain my side but just so you know, i have a very simple password back then, and to prove it to you, i even received an email regarding someone who tried to log in my account. see that? ayoko nang ikwento pa at iexplain ang side ko at ang lahat ng detalyeng di mo nmn alam at wala kang kinalaman. ALL I CAN SAY IS THAT, I’M INNOCENT.
I’m the type of person na pag gagawa ng gusot sisiguraduhin kong plantsado, at malulusutan ko. Pag nabuko, edi nabuko but would never be coward to reason out and make a stand. pero pag finrame up, oh golly marami na kong napagdaanang ganyan na tulad nyang dalawang baliw at insekyorang babaeng kilala mo na umaaligid sa inyo tuwing “gabi ng kasiyahan”, i make sure i can logically beat the brains of those persons behind that frame-up at mafigure out pano nila ginawa un.

Madaling gumawa ng kwento, madaling magkalat ng chismis, madali rin gumawa ng pekeng ebidensya, si kc concepcion nga hanggang ngayon single at no child padin ang image kahit ang totoo may anak na, yan pa kayang test of trust and gumawa ng kwento na for sure isa lang ang sisisihin eh hindi kaya?
BTW let me ask you, lahat ba ng words na sinabi nilang sinabi ko eh naforward sau? how about that word “na…” something? besides that 1 out of so many words i was accused of saying na finorward mo skn at ngwan nla ng paraan, wala ka pang ibang finorward skn na ganung message regarding that word which i forgot na u even asked me the meaning thru text. o… baka naman nakalimutan nilang gawan? I’ll tell you… change your profile picture and your name, chat and type the words as you please, MAGIC!!! it’s saved in the threads. followed by few other magics. too bad i erased it just when u told me to.

Lesson: ang hirap talaga kapag ang mga salita ay nabitawan mo na, mabilis makalimutan. yes indeed, keep your words sweet just in case you have to eat them BUT it doesn’t mean that you have to say something which is too good to be true. it already came from you, things are beyond our control because everything happens for a reason. you’ve told me this before and a lot of other sweet, loving and caring words. Buti nalang di ako tangang naniwala when you said that you love me coz for sure, i’ll be crying like a hungry infant. for sure i’d feel very hopeless, depressed and anxious. for sure my life would be a mess and i’ll cry myself to sleep.

Di naman ata katangahang maniwala eh, sa diyos nga na di natin nakikita nanniwala tayo. Kaya nga may salitang Manloloko at Sinungaling, dahil pinaniniwala nila ang isng mapagtiwala at malinis na puso sa kalokohan nila. 

HATE ME NOW I DON’T FUCKIN CARE! YOU SHOULD BE BLAMED FOR EVERYTHING.

to start this blog i’d like to say that I can’t help but write it and post it now! i have a lot of blogs na naka draft ilang months na ata dito sa tumblr pero wala pa kong panahong iedit. pero eto tlg the best to!!!! eto kasi sure marami makakarelate eh ung nasa drafts personal kwentos lang yun hahaha. so…

di ko alam kung anong klaseng hygiene meron tong yaya ng kapatid ko. grabe! papasok ng di naliligo. umaalingasaw na parang d p nya nppncn. gets ko yung maglalakad sya papunta’t pauwi ng school but i dnt knw why she’s not that hygienic. dinadaan sa pabango. di nmn porket yaya or whatever ka eh wala ka ng karapatang maglinis at magayos. hindi naman siguro yun sign ng klandian. nagpupulbo naman sya bago pumasok so hindi naman siguro masamang maligo sya or something. she’s a working student, won’t name her anymore. ok mahirap pagsabayin ang work at school but honestly isa rin syang napakakupad na nilalang. as in SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWW MMMMMMMMOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!! oo kung gano mo katagal at dahan dahang binigkas ung tinype ko ganun sya kabagal. nakakaloka! imagine katabi nya ung kapatid ko matulog, kamusta namn ang air pollution ng bata kong kapatid diba? you know where this fucking blog led from? Sa lechong kawali na binili ko pa sa new city food house dahil nainggit ako kay chito miranda! kakaloka! halos P100 din yun at isang TINY slice lang ang kinain ko kagabi. I told her to keep all the food in the fridge para painit later for breakfast. ok before that, last night i asked her to wash few bowls para paglagyan nung food, aba si loka nilagay ung bowls sa lamesa may tubig2 pa! when i threw the water away sa floor, for sure kahit sinong dumaan madudulas pa cause madjo madami pa tlg compared sa tinaktak na hinugasang bowl! nakakaloka! so going back, she stored it in tupperwares where i really feel na di nya nilinis or maytubig2 pa nung nilagay nya. then iniwan nya yung lechong kawali sa table (i covered everything na kasi before i went to my room last night dahil baka gapangan ng cockroach di nya mapansin. she was doing her homeworks kasi) then when i went out just a while ago to check out the food, goodness!!! may uwang ung cover sa lechong kawali!!! and guess who greeted me good morning?! ISANG BLACK AND WHITEGOLD-DTRIPED NA COCKROACH!!!! o diba P100 para sa breakfast ni IPIS!!!!!!! nakakalokang BABAITA!!!! buti sana kung bibilhan mo ko ng bagong lechong kawali!!! IMPAKTITANG STUPIDA!!!! 

SORRY SA WORDS KO, DI AKO GANITO SA PERSONAL AT DITO KO LANG NALALABAS TONG MGA GANITO KONG SALOOBIN! TAME AT DEMURE PO KO SA MGA GANITONG SITWASYO IN REAL LIFE! pero diba! NAKAKALOKA!!!

isipin nyo nalang inunahan ka pa ng ipis sa agahan mo!

actually yung katulong namin isa pang ganitong hindi hygienic!

NAKAKALOKA ANG MGA SERBIDORA SA PILIPINAS!

what am i trying to say here…

1.kung sa isang bahay nangyayari ang ganito, papano pa kaya sa mga karinderya o sa street food stalls diba?

2.naalala ko yung australianong may video na 20 things i hate about the philippines, totoo napakadumi ng PILIPINAS!!! at ng mga PILIPINO! PAKINGSHIT!

3.SANITATION ang usapan dito, syempre kung sang sang imburnal, basurahan, kubeta, POSO NEGRO, KANAL at kung saan pa mang madudumi at puno ng bacteria, virus at germs na lugar naninirahan, tumatambay, at nag kocrawl trip tong mga ipis na to diba?! HELLO?! tas dumapo pa sa pagkain mo? KALURKEY!!!

Pero salamat ndn dito s anangyari dahil nainspire ako pumunta sa palengke, tignan lahat ng mga produktong nilalangaw, ilista lahat ng yon at simulang iwasang kainin! kait sabihin mong hinugasan pa yon nilangaw na yon! ayoko ng kumain nun!

4.may isa pang pahabol… naisip ko kahit mas mahal sa grocery dun nlng ako bibibili. pero!!! ang tanong malinis nga ba yun?! syempre importation or travel pa nun from the source, nasa truck! open kaya yung storage nya sa truck at nasagap na nya lahat ng alikabok ng maynila bago sya nakarating sa grocery? hinayaan kaya itong maexpose sa germs, insects at iba pang unsanitary stupdity ng naghahandle sa product?! oh no!!! sana MAAYOS SYANG NADALA SA GROCERY! para naman worthy yung bawat piso at sentimong kamahalan nya compared sa palengke!

so anong kahahantungan ng lechong kawaling P100 pesos na pinagpilitan ko pang ipagdrive ako ng nanay ko ng 11:30pm para makabili nito?

a. itapon yung malapit sa ipis, hugasan ang natira at lutuin ulit
(Kadire naman diba? tas di na masarap yun kasi hinugasan na, sobrang kakuriputan naman ata yun eh kung nagkasakit pa kami edi bonggang hospital bills pa!)

b.ipakain kay brandy (yung aso namin)

c.itapon nalang (sabagay para less fats, calories and oil nadin, diet2 din diba, pati si brandy diet din overweight nadin kasi un eh hahaha. pero sayang ang grasya ni lord at pago dnung nagluto)

OH BRO it’s hard to choose!

HAY NAKO PHILIPPINES AND FILIPINOS, CHANGE STARTS FROM THY SELF! KAYA AKO MAGSISIMULA NA KO MAGBAGO wahahaha :P

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